Preservation

Okay, let me give you a bit of a back ground check. I am in my dimly lit bedroom and its about 4pm in the afternoon. I have a hot cup of tea, black with 2 sugars. My curtains are drawn and I have to admit - I am a little anxious. However, I do appreciate that this anxiety is peaking at a "normal" level. After all, I do have a semester test later today, which I am not very prepared for and in addition to this, there has been some bad news about the death of a fellow student. I must admit, the circumstances behind his death are a little unnerving for me because I never want to hear about people, my own age, taking their own lives. It is tragic news and it is very unsettling. In addition to this, I am trying to cope with all the disturbing imagery that the news is turning out lately. I cannot believe the strife in the world today. It is very saddening for me to read news headlines nowadays because  everything seems to be centered around violence, disaster, murder, rape, injustice, protests, disease outbreak, starvation, terrorism and countless other atrocities. Even more disturbing is my inability to surf the internet without being confronted by some pornographic image or slanderous slogan. I can barely use YouTube without being greeted by some video-bloggers catch title, "Father, puts baby in an oven." The bloggers video did not feature the incident but I find it horrible that such a title is used to attract viewers. Facebook is a complete free for all and is mixed and mashed with uncensored pages that are not fitting to any users, let alone children. There are things that are seemingly unavoidable; the more we try to push away from it, the more intrusive it becomes. Nevertheless, today I have something to be thankful for. I can be thankful that although the world seems to dampen my mood everyday, my heart and mind remains unshaken. I am thankful that my anxiety is peaking at a normal level and is a reflection of my change in mindset. The fact that I find this imagery disturbing is also an indication of my change in moral attitude.  Historically speaking, a collapse in morality always preceded the collapse of an empire. The roman empire is a clear example of such a collapse. The empire fell to barbarians after its very governance became corrupted by its immoral society. I know that this may sound rather somber but the world has very little respect for morality. I know that living righteously may be considered socially deviant behavior according to today's standards but there is so much honor in taking a stand for what is right. Preserving goodness in this world is definitely something worth fighting for. 

The righteousness of the blameless shall rectify and make plain their way and keep it straight, but the wicked shall fall by their own wickedness. Proverbs 11: 5