Patience

It is time I learn to keep my cool! I need to stare down those horrible temptations of seeking instant gratification or instant solutions to my problems. Especially with regards to my temper. I do myself a terrible injustice by reacting abruptly to things that make me angry. Often, I will say things that will undermine how I really feel and detract from the real reason I got angry in the first place. 

Giving somebody a verbal tongue lashing, without calmly assessing what point I need to get across is one of my most desperate weaknesses. The remedy for my problem is patience. However, having a clear understanding about what is required does not necessarily mean the solution can be instantly implemented. I am certain that learning patience will take some time and it is not only my hot temper that needs tending to. 

There are days when I become completely caught up in my need to understand everything. I have made so many wrong decisions in my life and now that I am beginning to make the correct ones;I have this uncanny desire to know more. I have completely abandoned my arrogance towards life and living. I admit it, I am desperate to understand more of what constitutes a righteous lifestyle but I need to be patient. This is something that cannot be done overnight. It takes time and being 22 years old, I have loads of it. However, I am no longer willing to burn that time doing senseless things; I need the patience to accept that understanding the sensible may not necessarily be smooth sailing. 

May the lord grant me patience.   

By your steadfastness and patient endurance you shall win the true life of your souls.

Luke 21: 19

Moreover [let us also be full of joy now!] let us exult and triumph in our troubles and rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that pressure and affliction and hardship produce patient and unswerving endurance.
Romans 5: 3

Now may the God Who gives the power of patient endurance (steadfastness) and Who supplies encouragement, grant you to live in such mutual harmony and such full sympathy with one another, in accord with Christ Jesus.Romans 15: 5

Whoever leads into captivity will himself go into captivity; if anyone slays with the sword, with the sword must he be slain. Herein is [the call for] the patience and the faith and fidelity of the saints (God's people).Revelation 13: 10