Battles

Fighting the good fight nowadays is a choice. The day I chose to reject the things that held me captive for so many years was the day I commenced a major battle within myself. My mind has become a minefield of thoughts and counter thoughts. There is not a single moment that goes by, that I do not require some form of subduing action against a specific impulse. Now, these impulses can range from resisting the urge to use fowl language to resisting the urge to drink. Nonetheless, they are all part and parcel of a vicious war that began nearly 4 months ago. I have a very powerful ally in Jesus Christ and through prayer my cause is held high. I have come to the realization that hadn't my world been turned inside out by my drinking habit, I would not have begotten the desire to reform my nature. I owe that to my lord Jesus. He has given me the great blessing of intolerance towards alcohol. He has made it clear to me that the day I choose to pick up a drink, would be the day I lose this war. Make no mistake, there are days when these battles take their toll on me mentally and physically. However, there have been tremendous strides towards victory. Last week Tuesday, marked my one hundredth day of sobriety. I have fought countless battles and won. At times, I may lose my way but having trust in God is like operating under the guidance of a golden compass. The compass will not tell me when I have reached my victorious destination but simply the direction I need to take and that is all I need. I feel myself gaining momentum and victory is nearly within my grasp but should I encumber a loss, I will not give up. Defeat is definitely not in my creed. I predict a day when my inhibitions have been crushed, my temptations swept a yonder and my fears splintered under the tremendous weight that is my faith in Jesus Christ. On that day, my victory will be complete.  

Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good. (Romans 12:21 NKJV)


This charge I commit to you, son Timothy, according to the prophecies previously made concerning you, that by them you may wage the good warfare, having faith and a good conscience... (1 Timothy 1:18-19 NKJV)


You therefore, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus. And the things that you have heard from me among many witnesses, commit these to faithful men who will be able to teach others also. You therefore must endure hardship as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. No one engaged in warfare entangles himself with the affairs of this life, that he may please him who enlisted him as a soldier. (2 Timothy 2:1-4 NKJV)